I’m having a colonoscopy Tuesday which means Monday is prep day. I have avoided having this done for 22 years and here’s why.

In 2002 I was living in my son’s dorm room in Manhattan (long story related to 9/11) and worked for a dr’s office as their office manager, also in Manhattan. I had a floor manager that was also the wife of one of the drs. (This is relevant)

I had some health issues at the time, low iron and pain in my abdomen, same as I have now actually, so as soon as my insurance kicked in they scheduled me for an endoscopy and colonoscopy. Prep was extremely hard for me so I didn’t want to repeat it ever again. Nothing was found with either test.

However the memories that are being triggered are related to the floor manager. She knew I was having both tests and would be sedated. She actually expected me to come to work after the procedures. Fortunately one of the drs I worked for said no and he actually drove his car to work that day and picked me up and drove me home. People didn’t actually drive their cars to Manhattan and park them to go to work so this was very kind of him.

That same floor manager is the reason I eventually had to leave that job as after Dan died she pushed me into doing tasks that weren’t in my job description and that I couldn’t do in the mental state I was in after he died.

The drs I worked for were awesome, she was not. But the office politics had her trying to get me away from working with the drs I was supposed to be and eventually forced me into a worse mental state and quitting my job and leaving Manhattan.

So yeah this simple colonoscopy comes with some baggage. Some positive energy would be appreciated as Vinny and I navigate the next 48 hours. I know lots of my friends have had them without issues. I just have preferred until now not to have one but now there is a reason to and I will discuss that more later in the week.